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  Table of Contents

  Cover

  The Servant’s Tale

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  The Servant’s Tale

  Margaret Frazer

  Chapter 1

  The house sat on the muddy track beyond the village church, drawn back with its two neighbors from Prior Byfield’s single broad street. Like the other village houses, it was framed in heavy, square-cut timbers, roofed with thatch, walled with wattle and daub thinly plastered. The doorsill of its single door sat nearly flush to the ground, with a single slab of stone in front of it against the wear of feet and coming dirt.

  Meg’s first task every morning since she had come as Barnaby’s bride had been to scrub or broom the sill and stone; it hurt now to see them scabbed with mud and realize she was simply too tired to bother. Instead, she stood in the doorway, staring into the inner shadows, waiting for her eyes to grow used to it, glad for just this small respite from doing.

  It was Christmastide and cold with a damp, spoiled blackness that sank into the bones. In a few days it would be New Year’s, 1434, though some said the year did not begin until March, and some few others that it began with the winter solstice just past. At any rate, it was the tenth year of King Henry VI, not that it really mattered to her. One year and then another, and each worse than the one before, no matter what she did or how hard she tried, so what was the use of trying?

  But despair was a sin, Father Henry had said at the harvest sermon. There had been reason enough to talk of despair then, considering how bitterly bad the harvest had been, and the prospect of a hungry winter before them.

  Now she stood in her cottage doorway and despite Father Henry, yielded just a little to despair, notwithstanding the gleaming penny hidden in one fist.

  She worked at the priory whenever she could, and these past two days while Domina Edith had been ill in bed, Meg had simply stayed, sleeping with the regular servants on a straw pallet on the kitchen floor. It had helped that Barnaby had been gone three days; she had felt safe in trusting Sym and Hewe to see to things at home. They were, after all, sixteen and thirteen and forever telling her how near they were to being men.

  But not near enough, it seemed.

  Her nose had told her that, even before she could see in the cottage’s gloom.

  Two days—the longest she had ever spent away at one time since she had been married. Coming past the church she had seen her home with new eyes; seen how its thatch had gone dark with age and rot, and sagged swaybacked on its ridgepole. And the plaster, meant to keep the walls from decaying in the weather, was crumbled away in ragged patches, leaving the daub bare to the rain. The cowshed—not that there were any cattle to keep in it anymore—slumped drunkenly against the far end of the cottage.

  Losing the cattle had been the greatest disaster. Barnaby had sold the cow a year ago, and last autumn the ox. He’d been half-drunk each time and gotten the worst of both bargains. Without the ox, he was no longer a member of the village plow team, which meant he could not keep up the daywork he owed the lord in return for the field strips and cottage.

  Meg had gone to Father Clement once, after the third of her babies died, grieving over it and Barnaby’s drinking. He had told her to pray, for every trial that came to her was by God’s will; and if she endured her earthly troubles patiently, she would sooner come through Purgatory’s pains to eternal joy in Heaven.

  But Father Clement was dead this year past, doubtless enduring his own pains in Purgatory, while things had gone slowly, steadily worse; and just now, underthe gray, heavy sky, faced with her unkept house and shiftless sons, Heaven seemed very far off and despair very near.

  But that made it no less a sin and, signing herself in half-felt penitence, Meg went inside.

  The cottage’s single door led into the cottage’s single room. To Meg’s right were the animals—the milch goat and the dozen chickens—kept in the cottage for warmth and safety. To her left was the house’s larger part, with the stone-circled hearth in the middle of the floor and what she had for furnishings—the bench and two stools, the table, chest, and bed, the few pots and bowls. There should have been some warmth to the hearth, a faint glow of well-banked coals; but it was as dark as all the rest. Meg went and stooped beside it, but not to build a fire. She lifted a rock from the circle, one not marked in any way different from its brothers, and probed in the soft earth beneath it, found a tiny clay pot stopped with a wad of rag, lifted it out, pulled out the rag, and put the penny in. It fell with a chink that showed it was not alone in there, though there were not many to greet it. She replaced the rag, and then the pot and then the rock, pressing the earth around it with her fingers.

  Only then did Meg go to the window and slide down the shutter. Daylight made only more clear how much her sons had left undone. Grimly, for anger at the failure of one’s children was allowed and good if it led to correcting them, Meg set to what needed doing.

  The animals—Nankin and the chickens—first. They needed feeding, and their stinking waste removed. Nankin was dry at present, but spring would come again, and there would be yet another kid for the pot and milk for the summer. Nankin had been faithful at that for a good many years; but she was old and Meg doubted there were going to be many more summers for her. This spring, if the kid were female, it would be time for Nankin to go into the pot.

  But what if they had waited too long? What if there were no kid? Meg worried about that as she went from nest to nest, looking for an egg and finding none. The hens laid less often in the winter, and even less when they were not properly fed or kept warm. There had been times when they gave an egg or two a week in the winter, but all this December there had been only three. But what better could be expected?

  She should not go to the priory, or else should not stay overnight even when she had the chance. But she must have the money her work brought, little though it was. With one thing and another—Barnaby’s quarrelsomeness and his drinking and his selling the ox, scanting what work he was given in its place, letting his holding and his strips in the fields decay—he was out of favor with Lord Lovel’s steward. It was almost a surprise that he had been entrusted with the task of finding a cart and horse and getting himself to Oxford to pick up a wine tun and deliver it to Lord Lovel’s manor for the Christmas feasting. It would hardly put a patch on how much he owed, but done well and timely it was a start.

  Meg would be satisfied if he did the task as ordered and brought back the cart and horse unscathed. They had had to borrow them from Gilbey Dunn, and ungracious he had been about it, though he was their near neighbor and as bound to the lord’s service as they were. He was the sort who would be quick to make claim for damages if the horse came home lame or the cart even slightly hurt. Worry over that and worry over whether Barnaby might have found a way to get drunk while he was gone were mixed with her wondering when he would be back.

  Had he been gone too long? She knew less than he did about the world beyond the fields and pastures that were Prior Byfield’s boundaries, and had no way to judge how long he should be gone or when he should return.

  But fretting over Barnaby didn’t set the house to rights. By
some oversight there was enough water in one of the buckets by the door to give Nankin and the chickens a drink. And deep in the ashes on the hearth she found a tiny spark of live coal to be teased to life with careful blowing and a bit of dried grass, then nursed into a proper fire to set the cold back a little while she went to the village well for water, her two buckets hanging from her neck yoke.

  When she came back, she set a pot to boil while she scrubbed at the dried oatmeal on the table. The table was the one good piece of furniture she had. Its thick, smooth boards sat on sturdy trestle legs that had a finely-detailed pattern of vines and leaves carved into their flat sides. When Sym and then Hewe had been small, she had used to sit on the dirt floor with them, tracing their fingers along the patterns and telling them stories of what a fine house the table must have come from. She had never been in a fine house, but there had been the chair and chalice and embroidered cope in the village church, and the Lovels had once ridden down the village street with hawks on their hands and their clothing gay with gems and embroidery, and Meg’s aunt’s husband had once spent an evening telling her tales full of crowns and peacocks and bright woven tapestries when she was a little girl. From all of that she had made stories for Sym and Hewe. The other babies, the little girls and the other boy, had not lived long enough for her to tell them stories.

  But the table, like the house and herself, had suffered with the years. Despite all she did and however much she nagged, its top was scarred with all the places Barnaby and Sym and Hewe chose to thrust in their knives instead of laying them by . their bowls like decent folk. For all that she scoured it, even with sand, there was no way to unmar it. But she scrubbed at it anyway today. It was her stubbornness that had kept her going all her life, and especially these last years as Barnaby went more to drink and the boys began running wild. It was her stubbornness that took her up to St. Frideswide’s priory, trying to earn enough money to buy back at least the ox. And maybe—but that was her secret hope; and as if in answer to her unfinished thought, the cottage darkened with someone standing in the doorway, and Meg looked up to see Hewe there, blinking as if surprised.

  There had been a baby born after him but it had died and so he was her last chick, her baby, the one she was most careful of. It was a little disconcerting to see, when the light was angled just so along his cheek, the beginning of beard touching it with gold. He was fair-haired, slender, and fine boned, but no longer boyish. His manhood was coming soon; at thirteen there was not much time left to save him from being no more than his father and brother were.

  Meg said harshly, “So you’ve come at last. And where’s your brother? Not working, surely.”

  Hewe shrugged, careless, and sprawled across the bench. “It’s Christmastide, and God set aside twelve days not to work, so what’s the to-do, Mam?”

  “We’re excused only from the labor owed Lord Lovel. Our own work needs doing, and you’ve been a slacker.” She pointed sharply at the goat and chickens at the room’s other end.

  Hewe sniffed and shrugged again. “It smells good enough to me. You’ve been too much with the nuns, Mam; it’s made you finicky.”

  “There’s muck from two days under their feet and I want it out of here! And so do you, if you’ve any thought of eating anything before I leave again,” she added, forestalling whatever reply he was about to make. “I muck out, or I cook,” she continued. “I don’t do both, and I won’t cook in a house that smells of muck.”

  “Well, at least can’t it be warmer in here? There’s almost no fire, and I’m near clemmed.”

  “There’s the last of the wood already on the fire, and you can fetch more if you’d be warmer.”

  “That’s Sym’s task, not mine!”

  “And where’s Sym to do it? Most of the things I do are someone else’s task, or ought to be. Get on with you. The mucking first. I want to see it done before I go.”

  “You’re going back again? What so needs doing there you’d leave us to be dark and hungry?”

  “It’s not what needs doing; it’s the ha’penny they pay me for doing it. You know what I want that for.”

  “Aw, Mam! I’ve no call in my heart to the priesthood, I’ve told you that and told you that. Better you stay here and keep us happy. And take what you’ve saved and buy the steward off Da’s neck. That’d be more to the point.”

  It was a familiar whine. It was what they all said, but Meg knew they were wrong. Years ago she had sent Hewe to Father Clement to learn his letters. At first proud to be singled out, he had tried hard, and learned with an ease that only confirmed her instincts. And it wasn’t mere cleverness; though he did it but to plague the priest, he asked Father Clement questions about his Catechism that had left the poor old man groping in confusion. More than that, Hewe could figure such things as how many fourpence in three dozen pennies without resorting to his fingers, while all Meg knew of sums was the old joke that two stewards and an executor made three thieves.

  Yes, Hewe would be a priest if she could earn the money to buy his freedom from villeinage. She said sharply, “My money is not for your Da. He makes his own bad luck, does Burnaby, and your brother takes after him. But there’s no reason you have to live like a beast, too, if I can buy you clear. Now see to that mucking so I can be on with my own business here.”

  He made a rude sound under his breath but went to the other end of the cottage. Meg did not care what he said so long as he obeyed. She squatted by the fire to clean the bowls and spoons and then the pot with the water it had been heating. The bowls and spoons she set on the table. The pot she emptied out and filled with clean water and put to boil. She set beside the hearth the sack of oatmeal that would be supper. She would have stirred an egg into the stuff if there had been any, but there was not.

  Still, with an edge of pride, she took a little napkin-wrapped bundle from her apron pocket and put it on the table.

  Hewe, who could fail to see a piece of work that needed doing even if it was sitting under his nose, looked up from the last of the chicken muck and said, “What’s that, then, Mam?”

  “A something from the priory. They said I could have it for a Christmas treat, but I brought it home for you. Finish your chores, and wash yourself and I’ll show it to you, but you must wait for the oatmeal before you taste it.”

  For once he washed without complaint. She had often spoken to him of the fine things they ate at the priory, but this was the first time she had actually brought something home.

  The low overcast had thinned to westward by the time she called him to the table. Weak, orange-tinged light slanted through the slatted window to lie in stripes across the cottage floor. It had little warmth but its light was welcome; and as Hewe bent forward to look at the napkin, the sunlight caught and burnished his pale hair to gold. Meg tucked her rough hands under her apron to keep from stroking it, knowing how much he hated any gesture of affection anymore, being too old to want his mother’s and too young yet to seek another woman’s. “So open it,” she said. “It’s all for you.”

  At her word, he pulled the napkin open eagerly, and she laughed aloud to see the wondering wariness on his face as he stared at what was in front of him.

  “It’s seed cake,” she said triumphantly. “You won’t find the like of that outside of a lord’s hall or a monastery.” She watched him sniff it while she held her own breath. He would like it, surely, sweet to the taste; and then she could point out it was the sort of thing he would have in plenty if he but pried himself out of the village and into the priesthood. But as she watched him, the wonder on his face suddenly meant nearly as much to her and she said with fond laughter, “Go on, then. Eat it. Your oatmeal will keep.” If he ate it now, she would not have to make him share it with his brother, and that would save a quarrel.

  Unexpectedly Hewe looked up at her. He had the cake in his hand, ready to taste, but he held it toward her instead and asked, “Share with you, Mam?”

  A warmth that nearly brought her to tears spread up from M
eg’s breast, that he would think of her in the midst of his pleasure. Surely, surely, he was meant for something better. She shook her head. “I had a bite of one at the priory. They’ve many of them, and other fine things, things you wouldn’t believe, in the kitchen there. That one’s all for you. Go on.”

  He did not offer again. Though his first nibble was tentative, his second was not, and after that he was all too clearly in a fight between prolonging the pleasure and wolfing the sweet richness down all at once.

  She went back to stirring the thickening porridge. “That’s the sort of thing the clever priest can get as often as he likes—”

  “Leave be, Mam!”

  And because she did not want to sour his pleasure, she said quickly, “Aye, I’ll let it go.” And to distract his frown, “I wonder where your father is.”

  “Somewhere close to here by now, probably. Or maybe singing his favorite song in the middle of the great hall, if Lord Lovel gave Da a cup of something when he arrived.”

  She gestured sharply at him to hush, but the other hand slowed its stirring. The thought of Barnaby’s drinking set her to worrying all over again. Barnaby drunk was even less able than Barnaby sober to cope with the hazards of travel in such lawless days, and for the first time the thought welled up that Barnaby might have gone so far as to broach the tun of wine before he delivered it. To come into the mercy of an already angry lord was almost past imagining. Maybe he had gotten drunk less dishonestly, and must needs stop to sleep it off under the cart and be freezing to death this minute somewhere along the road.

  Which would be worse? she wondered. To have a husband in danger of being hanged by his lord for theft, or to lose him to a natural death?

  It was a hard thing to be deprived of a husband before his sons were grown enough to care for his widow, even if she did not much believe anymore that the next fine or beating he would receive might finally bring him to give up drink.

  She quickly prayed he was alive, and that by some wonder he had stayed sober.